Ugh.

So far, a pretty good eatin' day.

1/4 c steel cut oats w/ 2 tbsp blueberries. Black coffee. 2 whole eggs.

30 min of cardio, a shake with glutamine.

And now I just downed a big bowl of spinach leaves topped with tuna mixed with celery and salsa. Shudder. I couldn't find any of that FF Miracle Whip in the fridge, so salsa it had to be. Yuck! I did it though, because Jewels said I could. So I figured I should.

Oh, and a mini cucumber on the side.

The Roo is still napping, so I'm gonna get in some resistance training now too. Hope this yucky salad I just ate pays off!!! lol

25-May-10

1st Assessment.

I worked my arse off.

Well, a small, miniscule portion of it, anyway ;)

Here is the news of what my first assessment brought me:

Weight: 177.5lbs (I'll take what I can get!) - 2.5 lbs

Measurents:

Right arm: 13.5

Left arm: 12.75 - 0.25

Hips: 45.25 - 0.25

Bust: 37.75 - 0.50

Waist: 36.5

Right leg: 25.25 - 0.25

Left leg: 25.5 - 0.50

Right calf: 16.75 - 0.25

Left calf: 16.75 - 0.25

27.48% bodyfat - 2.88%

128.7 lean mass

48.8 fat weight - 5.8

Doesn't look like much, but I was very proud of my hard work over the first 2 weeks when Jewels told me that I was down 3% bodyfat in that time frame, when they generally aim for about a 1% loss per week! So I was above average!

I have to sheepishly admit, I've had a few cheat moments since then.... last night I had some drinks and appies (it was a party night out with friends), I went one day without any exercise, and I sadly indulged in some cookie dough. Ugh.

My next assessment is in just over a week, so I really need to get my act together!

02-May-10

Here is the official initial assessment:

Weight: 180lbs

Measurements:

Right arm: 13.5

Left arm: 13

Hips: 45.5

Bust: 38.25

Waist: 36.5

Right leg: 25.5

Left leg: 26

Right calf: 17

Left calf: 17

30.36% bodyfat

125.4 lean mass

54.6 fat weight

The program, upon preliminary review, is a tad scary - my familiar yogurt with berries, bran bar and bedtime snack of an apple are gone. Exercise is up. But I managed to stick to 30 min or cardio, 7 days a week.

Stay tuned for my first follow-up assessment...!

Well, the results are in

It's gonna be a long and winding road.

Preliminary reports at ContestPrep.ca's office had me weighin' in at 180lbs. Mind you, that was late afternoon after a breakfast and lunch and snack and copious amounts of water.

Another thing I took away from it was that I'm 70% lean muscle. Sounds impressive, until I realize that the remaining 30% is body fat.

Now THAT doesn't sound too hot. !!!

Upon first glance, Jewels determined my diet needs a-changin'. I coulda told her that! But where I thought I was doing ok, she could see I was, in fact, not. Jewels is going to email my program to me within the next couple of days, very much looking forward to my nutritional and exercise plan.

Gonna be a challenge, but with inspiration from my 28 month old daughter today (who, with tears welling up in her eyes, asked for her soother, only to be denied it because "only babies need soothers", she swallowed her sorrow and said in a shaky voice, "I can do it.") If my BABY GIRL can find that motivation within her, well then to that I say, I can do it, too!

Nerves....

Woke up this morning to an unbelieveable 172.8 on the scale.

After weeks of nearing the 180 mark again and entertaining thoughts of seeking (and booking!) outside help, whaddya know, I'm back down again.

Well, I'm tired of the fluctuations, and I'm meeting with the bodybuilders (ack!) in 2hrs. If anything, I loves me a good challenge, and I love that my body has become my project. If I can change this, I can do anything!

Wow.

Has it really been 2 YEARS?

Time flies when you have a baby....who knew they grew up so fast? One minute you're ready to pop at 42 wks of pregnancy + 100 extra pounds, next thing y'know, 2 yr

s has gone by in the sheer blink of an eye, and you're chasin' after a naked toddler who is giggling as she runs away from you when it's time for a splish splash. !!!

Lovin' every minute of it!

I don't suppose anyone is still, or will ever again, stumble across my little piece of cyber space, and I'm ok with that - this is a way for me to hold myself accountable in my relentless struggle to lose weight and get happy with myself again.

I went back to work, full time, last year - April 13/09, at an astounding 213lbs (after having lost a bit of weight in the last few months of my mat leave). I remember having to go in a week or 2 early to find new uniform pieces, as my sz

4-6 pants could barely cover one thigh, let alone my whole arse.

My "boss" helped me dig through piles of uni pieces, and I recall her pulling out a sz 20 pair of pants. "Oh you don't need a pair THAT big," she said as she tossed them aside. I secretly took note of where they landed, and after she left the room, having helped me find the sz 12 I said I was looking for, I snatched up the sz 20 pants and sheepishly went into the back office to try them on.

To my horror, they fit.

Perfectly.

Well that was just over a year ago, and hard work and perseverance paid off - I went down to 167, and a roomy sz 10 pant. But since August, I'd been hovering at the 170 mark. Couldn't bust too far away from that, and it was driving me nuts.

At the beginning of last month, I thought I'd figure out a way to change it up - the woman at GNC suggested a 30-day cleanse, said it would DEFINITELY he

lp me break through the plateau. I got suckered into it and she made the easy sale.

But 30 days later, my weight didn't go down. It certainly didn't stay the same, either.

It had gone UP.

I started feeling helpless and frantic - why now was everything spinning out of control? Why am I GAINING weight?

The scale could not give me a consistent number more than twice in a row if I continued to step on it in succession.

Frustration set in.

I realize now that I can't do this on my own anymore. I need help.

So tomorrow, I'm meeting with 2 fitness gurus from contestprep.ca.

I will record my body comp as they lay it out to me.

Nervous, yes. Excited, yes. Skeptical....yes.

We shall see how this goes....ideally, I would like to aim for a photography shoot, to celebrate my hard work and show off my new body. But I have to commit like I've never committed before. This isn't just about sculpting a new body, there's also money involved here.

Lots of it.

I can't let my bank account down!

Wish me luck!

Before I sign out for the night, here is a pic of me and my girl in LA back in February. I can't believe she's already 28 months old now!